I am feeling incredibly grateful right now. I’ve just been dancing at home, alone, yet also together with a beautiful group of women from the South Island of New Zealand via zoom. Yes, dancing with a class in New Zealand from Australia. It’s quite miraculous what happened in our virtual circle this morning.
It was so good to shake off so much old stuck emotional energy. So good to shimmy my hips and empty my mind. It was pretty awesome to be able to make sounds and cry without worrying about the impact on others too. There are many blessings to this alone time.
I feel freer than ever to express myself.
Today, I could easily move off camera for a bit of a cry or a yell.
All the while I felt deeply held by the dance chief Hester. When she guided us to dance in connection with something from nature I gave my attention to the tall gum tree outside my cabin. I found my feet and I felt something new.
I felt the root system of the tree go deep into the earth.
I felt as though I was dancing inside these roots.
For the first time in many years I felt anchored into the land here.
I felt the tree as my spine, giving me more backbone.
I saw the root system under the tree like a placenta that protects a newborn.
I felt held by the roots.
After the class I went outside and gave thanks for the warm golden sunshine here in Australia today. I gave thanks for the clear blue sky and the abundance of green billowy trees around me. I am changing.
I am letting go of old ways of being.
I am safe.
I am not safe because someone loves me.
I am not safe because I’ve got a job.
I am not safe because I own things.
I am safe because I am home here in this flowing body.
I am connected to the web of life.
I am even connected to you reading this now.
I am more than my old wounds.
I am growing taller.
I can nurture the hurt child within me.
I can feed and love and protect her.
I have two feet that can walk.
I have legs that can dance.
I have hips that hold goodness.
I have lungs that breathe.
I have a heart that loves and breaks and loves.
These soft hips are home.
These feet are moving ground.
This spine is free.
These hands can heal and caress and write.
That class was the most powerful I have experienced in a very long time.
You are a gifted teacher Hester Phillips. Thanks to you I’ve found wings to fly today!
Well done on navigating an excellent class from home with your beautiful smile, your grace and your seamless guidance … all delivered with a deep reverence for each and every one of us.
I’m standing tall like a tree.
I’ve got roots and wings.
Thank you so much to Hester Phillips for a sacred and powerful gathering. Hester usually offers dance classes in Nelson, New Zealand on Sunday mornings. During this strange time of Covid 19 she offers her wonderful classes at 8:45 am Eastern Australia time (10:45 am nz time) on Sunday mornings via Zoom. You can email her at firstname.lastname@example.org and also find her at https://www.consciousdancenz.com/